Hope Fading Nightly

by Tellison

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All songs © & ℗ Tellison 2015. Under exclusive license to Alcopop! Records.

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All songs written by Stephen H Davidson except “Boy” and “Hellhole” by Peter Phillips. Music by Tellison.

Produced by Andy Jenkin at Rex Studio, London over nine months from 7th November 2013 – 20th August 2014.

Mastered by Alan Douches at West West Side Music, NY.

Richard Peter Snapes played third guitar and sang. Luke Leighfield played piano and keys.

Artwork by Tom Laskowski (www.tomlaskowski.com) & Lloyd Cook (www.cargocollective.com/lloydcookdesign)

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released September 18, 2015

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Tellison London, UK

Tellison is a failed indie rock band from London with acute organisational difficulties. They've released three albums and a bunch of singles.

With the release of their third album, "Hope Fading Nightly", Tellison are currently dusting off their guitars and referencing conventions and stepping up to take another swing at, if not the big time, at least the medium time.
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Track Name: Letter to the Team (after another imperfect season)
Dear Henry, Peter, Andrew, Richard, Matthew, Benjamin,
As members and past members of this ignominious team
I write to you to apologise for the mess we're in
This holding pattern of defeat on defeat on defeat

And though I've done my best it feels like,

We
Tried
And we fought the good fight, every single night
And luck well we had none
Don't know what I could have done
I just think the time has come

To step aside
To leave

So this will be the last time that I write to you or slur
"Glory to the team and to all those who sail in her"
Remember all the floodlit nights and pyrrhic victories
Remember all the lives we changed, or thought we changed at least

But like Keanu Reeves says:
"Pain heals,
Chicks dig scars,
Glory lasts forever."

Pain heals,
Girls like scars,
Glory lasts forever.

Please accept
my reluctant
though necessary
resignation.
Track Name: Helix & Ferman
Getting drunk
At a party and not talking to anyone
Isn't fine
And neither are you
You read yourself blue

Now all things just pass
And you still come in last
What now do you do?

Getting wrecked
When the thing that you're looking for is respect
Isn't good
And neither are you
You used to get through this

Now all things just pass
And you still come in last
What now do you do?

Cause you're 25
And everyone thinks
You can't do a thing right

Drink red wine
Say that you're fine
Drink red wine
Say you'll be

Driving home
From a show where you've never felt so alone
Is ok

26 will be great.
Track Name: Boy
As a young man,
I thought I knew everything,
I thought I knew how to live,
Completely clueless.
When 2005 was the worst year of my life,
You made it good,
When I thought no-one could.

But I was just a boy when I met you,
I shouldn’t have let you in but I wanted to.

On the night you left,
I heard everything you’d say,
I crumbled and crawled away,
I woke up in an alleyway.
Cause that night I raised my fist and in my fist I raised my drink.
I drank to broken limbs,
to bloodied lips,
to losing all you thought you wanted.

But I was just a Boy when I met you,
I shouldn’t have let you in but I let you,
It was 2005 I thought this loss might be my life,
Oh but I was just a Boy when I met you.

Seventeen and you think you know it all,
Nineteen and you think you know it all,
But I knew.

I was just a Boy when I met you.
Track Name: Wrecker
If ever I complain
About the love that you give me
And if I throw it all away
Then I hope you forgive me

But you left months ago
And I hope you know
That I wish you would come home

I'm a wrecker.

If ever I'm away
With the boys in the band
And you don't hear from me
Well I hope you understand

I'm a criminal
With a wrecking ball
And I wish I could come home

I'm a wrecker.

I'm a criminal
With a wrecking ball
And I wish I could come home.

But you don't wanna know.

I'm a wrecker.
Track Name: Rookie of the Year
I was the rookie of the year
I was the boy most likely to
And though I still play every year
I never really made it

I never really made it
Where did I go wrong?
I never really made it
Other prospects came along

And the worst thing that I do
Is take comfort that
They won't make it too

What once seemed so attainable
Now seems out of reach
Clear eyes, full hearts, can't lose, you can't lose.

I lost, I lost
Are my eyes and heart not good?
I never really made it
Though they said I would

And the worst thing that I do
Is take comfort when
You don't make it too

The statistics don't lie
The numbers speak for themselves
Your average is down
You're bottoming out

Your initial success was a rogue result outlier
There's gotta be something that's not in the numbers
There’s gotta be something that's more than the numbers
Doesn't there?
Doesn't there?
Track Name: Detective
If I
Were a Detective
I would be happier
Than I am now

‘Cause I
Would not be expected
To just take this lying down

I’ll do what I can
And my job would be my life
I’ll do what I can
But I could not keep my wife

‘Cause she left some time ago.

I really thought my life was homing in on
Some kind of resolution
Some kind of bold, stark solution
A neat Baker Street end
With a Paul Auster bend
Or a plausible lie
That I could tell my friends

Oh I think I could be
The one happy
Detective
‘Cause I would search for everyone else

I'd do what I can
And my job would be my life
I'll do what I can
But I never get it right

‘Cause she left some time ago.

I do what I can
And my job would be my life
I do what I can
But I never get it right

‘Cause she left some time ago
And she's with a better man
Than me.
Track Name: Tact is Dead
On the day I graduated
I passed out on the floor
You mean there's more?
I've done everything you said
I don't want to intern
It turned out meritocracy
Was a lie
As a philosophy it don't work
They just told us that
To keep us in school

You bet your drilled back teeth
I was looking at you
Picking fights on the tube
Cos you're feeling so blue
It's not just the scars you can see
It's the scars on the inside
Inside of me

My generation
Doesn't mean that much to me
And this Golden Age thinking
Means I'm often unhappy

I've got a little dark room
At the back of the house
I've been saving my pay
But it's wearing me down
And I can't afford anything
Increasingly I opt out of everything





I've had a million jobs
I'll have a million more
Wish I was successful
But I sleep on the floor
Work all my life
For family
So that my kids
Could be like me
The indignity, the humanity
Oh the horror the horror ah Bartleby
Throw me into a tube train
Pay me the minimum wage
So I will never earn more than my parents
I'd prefer it not to be this way but

My generation
Doesn't mean that much to me
And this Golden Age thinking
Means I'm often unhappy

Hidem Brook
You've got the look
Of a man I'd like to be.
Hidem Brook
You've got the look
Of a man… of a real man.

My generation
Doesn't mean that much to me
And this Golden Age thinking
Means I'm often unhappy.
Track Name: Orion
Well the nurse took four different needles
To get any blood out of me
And she got help after three with tears in her eyes

So I knew I was empty
Figuratively
That I live now alone is no surprise

If you really want to know me
If you want to tell the truth
If you've got to find
That thing inside
That no one ever could

I think,
We could be best friends
And then kiss
And ruin everything.

Well I left my home after midnight
And no one was around
And Orion looked down vengefully on me

Now my heart is that giant, blind hunter
And I am lost forever
Still visible at night though far away

If you really want to know me
If you want to tell the truth
If you've got to find
That thing inside
That no one ever could

I think,
We could be best friends
And then kiss
And ruin everything.

Honey if I seem lonely it's only cos I am
Kind of an actor
Kind of a liar
I am Orion

I am Orion.
Track Name: Mendokusai
There's a certain quiet honour in a failure
It's a subtle thing and subtle things are rare
But to know it you've got to be it, you've got to know the quiet shame
Of a life, wasted

We are all broken-necked.

Dreiser got it right the West's a Tragedy
And they get you in a boat out on a lake
It's to know your hopes and be tied by ropes on a bridge above a river
With dreams of a future, with dreams of escape.

We are all broken-necked

There's something evil in the night
It's creeping across the Atlantic
It makes you think you've got a right
To happiness and then it's tragic when you're proved wrong

We are all broken-necked
Swinging from the timbers at Owl Creek Bridge.
Track Name: Hellhole
Love
I was a hopeless heart
I was the tiniest light in an endless dark
Dilute to the billionth part
Till I met you

Honey
I was an open wound
I was an open noose that my head fit through
And I hoped that I’d need it to till I met you

Because her love was the only thing I ever understood
And hope didn't bring me the things that I hoped it would
Because she kicked me to the kerb

But then you said no
Just leave it to me
Forget your hurt, step away, just wait for me
I said my heart is a hellhole but leave that to me
If I save you from it
Will you save me from me?

Love
I felt old and weak
Drunk in the belly of the goddamn beast
At the bottom of the deepest deep till I met you



Honey
Was at the end of my road
I felt that I'd walked all my life just to lose control
Felt myself running for the nearest hole
Until I met you

Because her love was the only thing I ever understood
And hope didn't bring me the things that I hoped it would
Because she kicked me to the kerb

But then you said no
Just leave it to me
Forget your hurt, step away, just wait for me
I said my heart is a hellhole but leave that to me
If I save you from it
Will you save me from me?

Cos my body of work don’t lie
A surge of relief once their hurt subsides
And all the while I remember that
You’re all I have

Just leave it to me
I said my heart is a hellhole but leave that to me
If I save you from it
Will you save me from me?
Track Name: My Marengo
Black shoes, white shirt for a funeral
And we carried him down
Our friend
Is not around

And it’s often when you fall asleep
It’s a face in a dream it’s an alkaline beat
And everyone loses sometimes
But not everyone tries again

No one tells you
Things don’t go right much
There’ll be days when you’ve seen enough
And you want it to end

So I will mourn you though I won’t agree
With why you did it and it won’t beat me
No matter how bad the damage you will see
I’ll strive valiantly.

Black shoes, black shirt at a party
His bad luck weighs him down
"We all live troubled lives
We all want something more"

So I say "It's getting better" but he don't see no Marengo
Well you be the General
And I'll be Napoleon

No one tells you
Things don’t go right much
There’ll be days when you’ve seen enough
And you want it to end

So I will mourn you though I won’t agree
With why you did it and it won’t beat me
No matter how bad the damage you will see
I’ll strive valiantly.

My Marengo

So I will mourn you though I won’t agree
With why you did it and it won’t beat me
Though it’s hopeless and tragic
And though I’m ceaselessly panicked
No matter how bad the damage you will see
I’ll strive valiantly.
Track Name: Tsundoku
Set yourself a little task
See if you pass it
Seems like if you've got a brain
You'll be unsatisfied
What good's sensitivity
If you're constantly set upon?
What good's sensitivity
If it makes you lonesome
And unsatisfied?

My imagination made me sad
Where is all the good that they talk about?
They said if I work real hard I'd be
They said if I work real hard I'd be
They said if I work real hard I'd be
Happy.

Tsundoku they said you were the one
Joked I'd save on my heating bill
So I became a literal anchorite
And I bought insulation
Now I've got certificates
Now I've got a gown and some fur
I've been making paper all my life
But I ain't feeling satisfied
Or warm.

My imagination left me cold
Where is all the good that I was told about?
They said if I work real hard I'd be
They said if I sacrificed to thee
They said if I tried and tried and tried I might be
Happy.

My imagination made me sad
Where is all the good that they talk about?
They said if I work real hard I'd be
They said if I work real hard I'd be
They said if I tried and tried I'd be
Happy.

Set yourself a little task
See if you pass it.